Betcha been wondering: Now why don’t she write?

(Dances With Wolves jokes are a very hot take, dontcha know.)

Today’s edition of Tarot Odd Couples is brought to you totally against my will. I do quite literally shuffle, cut and lay out two cards, and then require myself to write about the combination. Oh damn. Money. Sigh. I don’t really understand money. I just understand its effects.

It couldn’t be more timely, really. Tarot is fun that way. The jerks. It’s such a tough subject that it slowed me down a bit, but it’s very relevant to my life, and maybe yours, right now. So let’s get to it, shall we?

First: Definitions.

The Four and Nine of Pentacles (or, Coins) are two sides of the same…um.. coin. They are just on opposite sides of the emotional spectrum. On one side..the Four of Coins, we have the miser holding his wealth tightly, fearful of loss, and alone. On the other side, we have the Nine of Pentacles. A card of so much comfort and wealth that the woman in the image is so entirely independent, so terribly comfortable and free of worry, that she is to the point of being, by choice, again, alone.

Both are wealthy. Both are comfortable. Both are alone.

Only one of them is enjoying it.

In a relationship spread, this can mean a few things. It can mean that the person you are asking about it very comfortable financially, but is unlikely to be generous in general. Might engage in behavior that is well past sane frugality and is instead comically cheap. Or, it can mean someone who has such a pleasant and insular life that they need no one else, want no one else, and prefer to be alone.

You can visit. You can’t stay.

Either way, when these two cards are together, it …means money drama in relationships.

I once read a study that I am  far too lazy find again that the majority of problems that happen between couples are money related. Not having enough of it….uneven power dynamics as a result of who controls the money, or even depression, anxiety and general unhappiness in marriages when women earn more than their husbands. Good times.

I went from a marriage to a, by all reasonable standards, wealthy man, but who kept our money separate, with whom I paid my own bills, and he pretty much had no expenses that would be reduced in my absence (beyond health insurance for me). He was a very good man, but he was fearful of loss. VERY fearful…so he certainly protected his interests. Given his first wife…I understood. He had nothing to fear from me, though, and never being able to earn his trust was hurtful  to our marriage. We were very close, but parallel. Not partners. Not all in. He was raised by wolves, so I had some compassion regarding this.

After losing my husband to cancer, which damn near killed me too (she wrote casually, as if it didn’t entirely eff me up for many years)….

A relationship with a wonderful man who works hard, is not “wealthy” by American standards but does just FINE, thank you, and is wildly generous, who has a “we are in this together” orientation and open, fearless heart, fell into my lap like a gift from the gods, and I am happier, closer, more secure, and more content as a pair of “starving” (not really…) artists in our little cottage than I ever was on the lake house with the man who Was Never There. We both step up and work hard and share. I was in the Four of Coins, but now, in spite of current money struggles on my part…live in my Nine of Coins….with Eric.

We are insular. Right now, we cannot afford to go out much. We ADORE each others company. We cook meals and binge watch shows and I work and make pretty things and he makes pretty things and works, and we do ok. We will do better, and I am working hard to make that happen.

Money CAN buy a great deal of happiness in the sense that it can create freedom and lessen stress, greatly. But, the presence of money in a relationship is no promise of happiness at all. Perspective and your heart’s orientation, is.

I am grateful to be so rich in love.